Sunday, July 3, 2011
Sunday, March 6, 2011
"A wise man makes his own decisions, an ignorant man follows public opinion" - (Chinese Proverbs)
It’s a rainy Sunday Night and a lot is going on in my mind. Thoughts of the unknown, and thinking about past events, mean while am trying to hold on to the present. This sometime could be scary because as you’re living your life, you feel as if you’re not going anywhere. But when you take a closer look at everything you have accomplish you realize you came along way.
That’s why am writing you this letter, it’s to help us figure this out. I mean at sixteen a lot is going on, your first puppy love (I wish you never fall so hard, took year’s to get over). The friends come and go all the time, as well as the trust issue you have with them (You still don’t have any idea of who your real friends are).
At twenty-two you would think you would have all the answers, life would be easy. You would be in a serious relationship (like in a good 8o’s movie). But in reality you realize you don’t even know the questions. Which isn’t a bad thing after all, I mean the unknown could be a bit scary as well as interesting and fun. Sometimes it best not to have all the answer, its better to take life as its coming one day at a time. You should still set goals and have a dream, and an idea of what direction you want to go with your life. But it’s ok, if things don’t go your way all the time, shit does happen. And it will happens to us a lot, some really bad and others make a great story.
Looking back at everything, my reason to write you is just to see what I would say to you. Trust me am not saying, life is a bed of roses or anything. Am just saying I wouldn’t change a thing, keep going in the direction your heading. And don’t take life so seriously; understand things change and people do to. And if all else fails know this "A wise man makes his own decisions, an ignorant man follows public opinion".
BE YOUR WONDERFUL SELF!
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
"Mastering your fear means accepting it, owning it, and making it work for you instead of against you." - Rhonda Britten
Sometimes it’s hard to admit that you are afraid of something, from being afraid of the dark to being afraid of clowns. Admitting any fear could be very hard and challenging but the hardest thing for someone to admit is the fear of falling in love.
I believe I have that fear. From clowns all the way down to the “L WORD”… I DON’T KNOW WHY!(Am lying)… Yes I do, like I stated before admitting your fear could be very hard. But then again most people go threw life not realize or not caring that they have a fear of being in love. Most girls would put the blame on there absent fathers, but not I. I would never give that man, that kind of power over me and my life (not like HE cares anyways).
I would put that blame on myself. For the simple fact it’s my life, and am the only one who realized this fear. The crazies’ thing about having this kind of fear, there is no one to talk to about it. I guess some fears are best left to ones self. But then again its better to talk things out, that’s how you realize why you act the way you do. It’s just hard finding someone to listen…
What helped me address this fear is not going on dates etc… It’s paying closet attention to my actions and my feeling on some issues. As well as listening to love songs (Luther, Mariah list goes on…) and watching a lot of romance movies from The Notebook, A Walk Remember all the way down to Ghost. Believe it or not it was therapy for me.
I own my fear! Am ready to fall in love, just like anything in life it take baby steps to reach that be cross road. And when I get there am hope am ready, not only to give of myself but to give my self completely. But for I will live with the fact am IN LOVE, with my career!"The more connections you and your lover make, not just between your bodies, but between your minds, your hearts, and your souls, the more you will strengthen the fabric of your relationship, and the more real moments you will experience together." -Barbara de Angelis
Think about it!....
Til next time....Peace/Love & Cookies
- Ashley M.
- Hmm, I am not the same person I was yesterday! Shy (life is too short for that), Naïve (I pay close attention to things now) Angry/hot headed (I try not to let people get to me) AM A CHANGE WOMAN. Therefore, you should get to know me before you pass any judgments on me.